Well as I learned, that if you've been in a traumatic event, that if you have had prior trauma ini your life that you are more likely to get PTSD.
So listing out all of my list of dirty secrets is not the happiest of moments for me. This is extremely embarrassing and horrifying to even put out there to the world to read and critic.
I had been molested as a young child by an older family member.
When I was in college over 10 years ago I was in an automobile accident where I struck a pedestrian at a high speed. The pedestrian was killed instantly. My life was altered for ever more.
There is where my PTSD began. The fear, the intense intense horrifying debilitating fear, The panic attacks, the withdrawal from anything good and fun. From a happy carefree soul, to a cynical freak.
The..... change.
After being in a long abusive type relationship with alcoholic I was lucky. I met a wonderful man whom I married. He served our country in Iraq for a year. He came back with a nasty case of the PTSD as well, So I am truly truly surrounded by it.
Recently a couple months ago I witnessed a car wreck that bought up a lot of old smashed down feelings. The bubbled out with such putridness that I HAD to get help. I needed it so badly. And that is where I am at today and doing what I am doing.
Dealing with my hubby who is a combat vet, I forgot that I had my own problems to deal with.... except when my issues plus his issues create some serious marital problems.
Like Eminem raps...
"Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano"
Maybe.
